

let your heart out.

let your heart out.
Only you have come to find me
Only you have come to pull me out
Only you have come to wrap your arms around me
No one could ever love me
Like the way you love me
Wrap your arms around me
Oh my God, you've turned your eyes
Now my heart has come alive.
Waterdeep: Save Me Lyrics. (good song)
let your heart out.
I am struggling with the issue of authenticity. Here I am in Toronto on this program, that I am hoping will help me get more focused on God. I am not even sure this is a good reason for being here. Though, I am happy to rest knowing that I came here because God, you led me here and You made The Way. So, Lord I do thank you. You have a purpose here. Help me to seek it, find it and follow it. In wanting to get more focused...i have tried to encourage or have thought about considering encouraging disciplines that i think would help with this. But since I know, my normal pattern of life does not consistently include these things, I feel like a fake. But, i want to change, I want to use this opportunity to develop essentially a new and better way of living.
even now, I am reminded of Romans 12:1 be transformed by the renewing of your mind...
I guess trying to enforce right behavior or spiritual disciplines isn't going to help me much if my mind is not transformed?
I don't know.
I just want to move forward, Be closer, be freer, hold more truth to my heart in a way that pushes back the darkness and brings the light of christ to burn brighter.
Lord as you know, I am so sick of teeter- tottering. tbc..
let your heart out.
"If what we call love doesn’t take us beyond ourselves, it is not really love"
"Have you ever been driven to do something for God not because you felt that it was useful or your duty to do so, or that there was anything in it for you, but simply because you love Him? Have you ever realized that you can give things to God that are of value to Him? "
"There are times when it seems as if God watches to see if we will give Him even small gifts of surrender, just to show how genuine our love is for Him. To be surrendered to God is of more value than our personal holiness. Concern over our personal holiness causes us to focus our eyes on ourselves, and we become overly concerned about the way we walk and talk and look, out of fear of offending God. ". . . but perfect love casts out fear . . ." once we are surrendered to God ( 1 John 4:18 ). We should quit asking ourselves, "Am I of any use?" and accept the truth that we really are not of much use to Him. The issue is never of being of use, but of being of value to God Himself. Once we are totally surrendered to God, He will work through us all the time."
let your heart out.
"Your Beautiful"
the words loudly read
on the back of the bathroom stall
Inside I laughed the laugh of a cynic
on the bus
the sign loudly read
"Your Beautiful"
again I felt my cynicism rising
If this is God, I thought
He will tell me a third time
God always speaks in three's
I arrived home
dropped my bags at the door
looked down at the mail
And again read:
"You're Beautiful"
This time,
I Laughed out loud
That evening, remembering my response
Of doubt, cynicism, even mockery..
I scolded myself
Who am I to respond to God like that?
Why can I not just accept in faith
Words of truth
Why do I always doubt
Asking again and again
"Lord", if that is really You
Could you tell me
Just one more time?
So I ask God,
What do you mean
"Your Beautiful?"
let your heart out.
I am dreaming of a place
where I continually find rest in your grace
where love is not an abstract word or action bestowed upon me
but a gift Jesus gives others through me
I dream, I hope, I wait
That this carnal, fleshley peice of me
will somehow shed this skin of selfshness
and find replaced
a heart of life and love
in place of the heart of stone
let your heart out.